My husband and I went to dinner with some new friends over the weekend. It came up that we have been married six years, they were curious as to why we haven't had children. It is rare that people in our sub-culture would be married this long without children. My husband explained that we have been trying for the last two years to have children. I always find it interesting that so many people respond to this with, ''you know it helps to put your hips in the air after sex, right?" I always respond with, yes we have tried that but I have a medical condition. I don't think anyone gets to the IVF stage without having tried putting their hips in the air, or trying any variety of yoga poses for 5-15 minutes. I know what all the books say to help aid having babies, I have tried all the tricks. I promise.
I have been regulating my emotions as far as IVF goes, I am afraid to completely invest myself because there is always the chance that it will not work, and historically I am a poor responder. I have to remember the very real possibility of failure and then I wonder, how far am I willing to take this journey. I have no answer for that.
On the flip side I find myself thinking of nurseries and counting out the months to see when I would potentially have a baby. Please work IVF, please, please, please work.