Tuesday, July 12, 2011


I went and saw the doctor last week and the cyst cleared and he started me on my month of birth control. I am waiting for the nurse to call today with our IVF plan but it looks like we should be getting started around August 8th. I am so glad to be moving forward. I have been taking birth control, antibiotics (did anyone else's Dr. assign antibiotics to clear out anything that might be in your system?) and I have started taking prenatals again. I think it is the birth control but every morning I wake up with nausea.

My husband and I went to dinner with some new friends over the weekend. It came up that we have been married six years, they were curious as to why we haven't had children. It is rare that people in our sub-culture would be married this long without children. My husband explained that we have been trying for the last two years to have children. I always find it interesting that so many people respond to this with, ''you know it helps to put your hips in the air after sex, right?" I always respond with, yes we have tried that but I have a medical condition. I don't think anyone gets to the IVF stage without having tried putting their hips in the air, or trying any variety of yoga poses for 5-15 minutes. I know what all the books say to help aid having babies, I have tried all the tricks. I promise.

I have been regulating my emotions as far as IVF goes, I am afraid to completely invest myself because there is always the chance that it will not work, and historically I am a poor responder. I have to remember the very real possibility of failure and then I wonder, how far am I willing to take this journey. I have no answer for that.

On the flip side I find myself thinking of nurseries and counting out the months to see when I would potentially have a baby. Please work IVF, please, please, please work.


  1. All these feelings remind me of how I felt. You never know how far you are willing to take it until you are facing that situation. Just take it one day at a time and you will find it goes by fairly quickly. Just keep yourself busy!


  2. Isn't it funny how many people are sure that the reason they got pregnant is by putting their hips in the air? And, they think that the rest of us just haven't thought about checking out ways to get pregnant.

    My doc also has you (and, actually, I think your husband) take anti-biotics before things get started -- just in case.

    Wishing you lots of luck as you get started!