Friday, February 4, 2011

lucky me

First it is "you are in the 10% of women in their 20's with infertility" then it is "you are in the 1% of women your age with this problem". Lucky me? I'm rare, almost every other woman in this world with declining egg count is over the age of 35. According to one doctor I will be in menopause around 35. On the bright side my periods will stop, but then I will have to do hormone replacement treatments to keep osteoporosis and other things at bay.

When talking to someone about this news they asked, "do you even really want to be having children after 35? We plan on being done by then!" I hadn't ever really given myself a deadline on having children but really the point is that the choice has been taken away from me. I have 9 years to have children, give or take. I have no doubt that some of my friends will still be having children at the time I am going through menopause.

I want children, I want my children. I feel like this possibility is being taken away from me to a degree. Thousands and thousands of dollars will be poured in to trying to preserve what little fertility I have left and I am 26, I am supposed to have plenty of fertility left.

Menopause 15 years early, lucky me. Funnily enough, I don't feel that lucky.

1 comment:

  1. I just wanted to drop in and let you know that you're not alone. While I dont have the same issues you do, I'm 27 and not sure I can get/stay pregnant without medical miracles.

    Hang in there, have hope, and know that there are others that can relate and are available if you need to talk/vent/etc